To be completely honest, I dont want to be writing this right now. As a matter of fact I dont want to be writing at all. Sad yes, but I have no motivation. Yesterday I checked my average screen time and you want to know how many hours I average on a daily basis? Thirteen. THIRTEEN HOURS bruh. I sleep for 10. You do the math. I watch too many tapping on Lalaloopsie ASMR videos on Tiktok… TO BE HONEST, recently I’ve realized that everyday tasks and things i used to enjoy doing for hours on end. Like writing. Im sick of, I’m exhausted from and I cant bring myself to do for longer than 20 minutes, and that is a hard pill to swallow. Not just because writing has been a favorite hobby of mine and outlet for years, but because thats simply so disheartening. But thats besides the point, I feel sick and nauseated by my recent lifestyle and I am sad bc tomorrow I get my wisdom teeth out and maybe that fear is contributing to how I’m feeling as I write this to you. Im working on becoming a writer and I personally believe that comes with pushing through the dragging feeling of never wanting to type a word or pick up a writing utensil ever again. Which technically is this entry exactly. I worked very hard to get this site where it is right now, I must use that to my advantage. Wish me luck bc tmrw after they pull entire bones out of my mouth who knows if i’ll be alive.
Featured is a photo of what I am currently listening to as I write you my lovely thoughts on life.
xoxo
– Miss.SecretGarden
