Hello,
Sometimes I genuinely forget (somehow) that this is my site and my space on the internet where I can write what I want, how I want, when I want. I think the pressure to write and put out something I feel will actually add value to your guys’ lives and, not be a mind numbing “think piece” on something no one is interested in has limited my practice as a writer. In the summer of 2024 I was DEDICATED to my writing. I would write practically everyday (and you’re going to have to believe me on this one because it does not reflect on the blog) and yet the number one thing I am passionate about I never put out into the world. Even though I spent so much time developing this place so I can do just that. So its time I stop treating this place like something to be critiqued or something that I am submitting as if it is due at 11:59 tonight.
I want to thank my new readers as well because I see you all in my analytics and appreciate you coming by although I am not consistent. It truly means the world to me that you took the time out of your day to read my work even when its a bunch of word vomit. I hope that this space I have curated like a little world inside my head feels like an escape and small bit of entertainment.
I recently have been trying to figure out the format of youtube videos I like to film and where my favorite place to shooting them is. Unfortunately for me my favorite place is my laptop, and because that is too inconvenient for a “DIML” video or something where I am on the go. So i’m going to have to resort to my phone like usual but remember to pull it out and stop dropping my filming mid day as I always do because whipping it out before I run into pilates or as i’m at a restaurant is too out of my way. I like to live in the moment and i’m always running late so i forget but it is also so important that I actually document these moments so I can look back and see all the details.
Please drop some book recommendations
Recently I have been researching books to read so I can get back into reading and rather than sitting on my phone and scrolling I can do something that is stimulating. Something I can ACTUALLY remember. One of the most infuriating things about being on social media is the fact that I never remember the content I am consuming unless it is extremely remarkable. Knowing that I am just passively receiving information is so aggravating. I have been trying to train my algorithm to push things that will remind me of that fact. To tell me that I am spending too much time on screens or to at least teach me something new.
I have been also recently thinking about just how proud I am of myself for staying consistent this year with my newest serious hobby. As a bit of background info (if you have yet to read on my about page) I like to practice yoga. I initially got into it after silly pose challenges popped on my Tiktok for you page but ever since I started I have truly grown to love it so much. I had about one off month back in August and I began to feel like maybe I would never pick it up again but I one day got up again and decided that I would not let my progress slide backwards. The feeling of being able to move your body and be flexible and feel comfortable is something I feel like I definitely took for granted. I am so able and never truly realized it till now. I have also started to get into pilates, at first I was put off by it because at least in my area the community was a lot less inclusive and it seemed like a space I didn’t want to spend my time in. But since meeting some new instructors and visiting more places in town you really just have too look to find your niche. There is all kinds of people that practice but not a lot I felt were close enough to my age to really relate to so it was hard to break out of my shell. Eventually I realized I can bring people in my personal life with me and encourage them to accompany me or try out the hobby on their own so maybe we can go together someday. I have detached from the idea of trying to find a place where I have friends and community within the space which I am so new to. Of course I never turn down an opportunity lol but I think the pressure of having to have “a go to studio” or “a workout buddy/friend group” has really separated me from the fact that I should focus on my own practice and progress. It has given me lots more luck to ask my outside friends to come into the world and join me for a fun time then expect to fit in at a particular studio and make friends with all the regulars. If you are struggling with your own attempts to fit in at a particular studio just know that it takes time, it takes commitment and it also takes money lol so don’t feel bad and keep going and eventually the world will find its way to open opportunities to fall right into place for you.
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I would also like to drop a reminder in here for everyone to go ahead and VOTE! Early election has started for many and it of course is a civil duty to do so and right now is the perfect time. It is important now more than ever to use your voice. Use your privilege. There are so many who can’t and wasting your power by not voting is a privilege in it of itself even if you do not realize it. I hope that all my readers are active participants in our democracy because like in many things (commitments, consistency, activism and others) nothing changes if nothing changes. So if you feel strongly about the reality you are living right now, want to see future you and those you love thrive, vote this season!
oh and vote blue… obviously.
xoxo,
Miss.SecretGarden
